Dreams Are Dreams Because They Do Not Last
Dreams Are Dreams Because They Do Not Last
  • Reporter Kim Seo-yeon
  • 승인 2019.06.13 13:09
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▲Reporter Kim Seo-yeon
▲Reporter Kim Seo-yeon

I like physics. The metaphysical realm of quantum physics where things both exist and do not exist, the grandeur cosmos where galaxies swirl colossal stars all so silently, and the dancing of the invisible fundamental forces… These features were just too beautiful to me. My love for the natural science was so dogmatic, that I shrugged off all the discouraging advice such as ‘Physics does not get you money’ and ‘Physics is for geniuses’ and applied for physics on all my university applications. So, deducing from my rather physics-crazy introduction, readers would expect myself to be a physicist. However, I am not. 
My first year at POSTECH was quite rough for me. Long story short, I lost my dreams. The majority of the lectures were unbearable as professors taught with the least effort, the immense workload did not allow me the time to truly understand, and the problems the physics department demanded students to solve were of too high-level compared to their basics-oriented lectures. I mean, how am I supposed to solve an Olympiad problem after being taught the most basic concepts? The proportion of students who drop the compulsory course shows that many fail to ‘quantum jump’ from the lectures to the homework and exam problems. The inconsiderate lectures and curriculum dismayed, or even scarred me; physics was no longer a pleasure. Moreover, the research of the department of physics concentrated on ‘condensed matter physics’ as it was an area of ‘large impact in industrial technology in Korea’, whilst I wanted to become a theoretical physicist, contemplating and constructing theories that would shed light onto the yet unobserved realms of the Universe, was not going anywhere near industry. It was evident that my dreams would not be fulfilled here. All the effort I had put into life seemed to have lost its purpose, and, for a person who was so dedicated her whole life to one thing, the absence of that one thing was too much to handle. 
But I moved on. Although I do not have a major yet, as I belong to the Mueunjae department, I will be joining the CSE department next semester to become a computer scientist. Do I like Computer Science as I like physics? To be honest, no. I only had the chance to learn ‘coding’ last year through the compulsory CSED101 course, and, it was the fact that I could create a program that thrilled me rather than the actual study. However, taking a few CSE courses this semester, coding turned out to be not too bad that I think I could just about bear spending the rest of my life in front of a computer. Moreover, I participated in the entrepreneurship education program POSTECH X YONSEI <Startup: Start-up Boot Camp> last Winter and realised that I had an ambition for starting my own business. I aspire to begin a start-up based on artificial intelligence applied to the medical field, and a degree in CSE will be a fundamental stepping-stone to my new dream. 
I am probably not the only one who lost her dream after joining POSTECH. Many Postechians have a hard time adapting to a new environment, and, for a few of them, their dreams may have changed. My point is that it is completely fine to change or to even give up on your present dreams. Anticipation can never fully coincide with the truth, and life never goes as expected. And, more importantly, there are many options still out there. The end of a dream does not mean the end of life; rather, it is a new start. Look back and realise how many times your dream career has changed, and, still, you got here. If you are in the position I was in last year, please do not stagnate; you are a young person with numerous opportunities and options that are close-at-hand, and new dreams await you. After all, dreams are dreams because they do not last.